“I’m sitting on the train eating an entire bag of pretzels. Not a little bag. A big bag. This is on top of the 4 or 5 or 10 chocolates I ate at work. And the Mexican food I had last night. And the bowl or two of cereal I’ve taken to snacking on after dinner. ” I wrote that several days ago. Since then I’ve had several bags of pocky sticks, 2 donuts, 2 slices of pizza, 4 chocolate-covered cherries, a bag of m & m’s and a couple of boxes of Mike & Ike’s. WTF? What the hell is going on here? It never ceases to amaze me how much I profess to want something and how little I will do to actually get it. I’m a relatively intelligent person. I know that eating badly and not getting enough exercise are not good for me. I am aware that my dad’s big belly contributed to his heart attack. I see how unhappy my mom is because as she aged her boobs and her pelvis got closer and closer to each other and nothing fits her. My knees hurt, my back hurts, my shoulders ache, and I make that little grunting noise every time I sit down or get up. There are two paths I can take. I can stay on the road I’m on. Gain my 10 pounds a decade, wear muumuus and spend the rest of my life watching reruns of The Big Bang Theory and playing Candy Crush. Or…I can run. Or walk. Or swim. Or dance before bedtime. I can write, or fly a kite. I can read, take the lead. I can study or call a buddy. Jump off the shelf and love myself. Volunteer, lend an ear. Get off my ass, take a class. Create, meditate, perspire, aspire, yearn, learn. Not waste time with things that rhyme. Sorry, things got a little Dr. Suess-y there. But we’re never to old to change our minds. To try something new. I do not like eating healthy and exercising. I do not like them in a house. I do not like them with a mouse. I do not like them here or there, I do not like them anywhere. The point is life is full of things we don’t want or don’t like, or think we don’t like even if we’ve never tried them. Some, like exercise and turning away the m & m’s , I’m never gonna like. But, others, you never know until you try. “You do not like them, so you say, try them, try them and you may.”*. Right on, Doc.

*Green Eggs & Ham, Dr. Suess

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